My thoughts on how I feel.
Adversity score of 400.
My pain isn’t plain on the pane of the insane.
So perturbed with the absurd I curb the verb.
Stopped in my tracks with tracks on my back
I lickety-split by throwing a fit.
I spout about til I rout the doubt.
I get stuck by luck in the fallout.
Under the bus there’s always a Gus
who guesses my stresses and dresses my messes.
Are you the who who gives a hoot?
Or the pout who gives a shout from the round about?
My back’s bus tracks from the drive-by hacks, now lax.
I rise at sunrise to surmise the prize that denies the lies.
Here goes the rose, the thorn scorned, past mourned,
no longer torn in two but into the view.
I see I’m free to reframe the blame.
Once lame, no more the same, sane in the gain.
Daring to care no longer a scare…
The long explanations many give are risky since we will begin to believe what we say without remembering what we actually said. If someone addresses what we said that we don’t remember, we will often say “I don’t understand” because of the confusion of hearing what we said we didn’t remember saying. What we remember is our intent that we begin to defend while not listening even to the defense. More confusion and then acute boredom occurs creating made up assumptions that rarely have anything to do with real time reality.
So what is the answer? Knowing we don’t know how to listen so we become willing to learn to listen. Listening is not something we do, but something we learn to do. Without the learning, listening even if it begins, stops short of hearing in the moment and remembering replaces the listening. Once remembering takes over listening , we are remembering something that either is no longer happening, or, we remember something that happened that has nothing to do with what is happening now.
Learning to listen happens when the goal of words changes. The goal to explain is replaced by the goal to grow. Growth hears the underlying pain existing. Hearing the pain, not just feeling it or oblivious to it, stimulates more growth to recognize the reality of the relationship needed to receive the solution whether it be with someone or just your relationship with yourself as someone is listening to you with your words.
Having someone to listen with you listens with you and your words spoken and unspoken. The arrangement of words spoken and unspoken begin to appear in a fluency without the arraignment of judgment.
Arraign, arraign, go away, come again no other day.
Boredom becomes curiosity that begins to play.
Play, I say, listens to today,
Today I hear tomorrow
marrying joy to sorrow.
Hope as affection enabled by and toward the authoritative tenderness in Christ.
Temper sedate, not sedated.
Confusion expecting worse.