I hear many people who are described as unemotional that accuse those around them as too emotional. I find that the unemotional are the most expressive of emotions through their too sweeping statements, too harshly conveyed, and too suspicious of those they accuse. I call this emotional, but detached in disorder. Oh how deep their pain must be that inflicts so much pain on others.
Yet without the heart seeing and gathering the wisdom from the way we feel, our feelings often can determine a false sense of reality of what only seems to be true.
Let the emotions instead become hearing aids into the intimacy with the Almighty and his son or daughter whichever that you may be as he mends the broken heart drowning under the bridge over troubled waters.
Sing with the Matter Horn and bad news will not be feared but seen through.
We so often get bogged down in our disappointments and the powerful effects on us from these that we begin to seek some form of relief with a vengeance. What we do from that point is just shift our disappointment to a new object whether it be a person or project and the feeling from that is that of power, yet there is no real power. This is simply what I call fear as power in reverse.
The feeling is similar to backing up in your car at high speed. You may have the feeling of getting somewhere but it feels more like a growing crisis with an accident waiting to happen. It worsens in the fact that after I make my decision to shift my disappointment to something or someone else, the decision itself takes on strength or confidence making it hard to reverse when wrong.
The real shift that should take place is a shift in the actual power itself that empowers me. We all have experienced this in times where we were moved in such a way that a deep feeling of passion came over us in such a natural way that no intellectual tendency to argue or prevent it could stop us.
There is a freedom in this experience that transcends disappointment into a previously hidden joy with strength that clears the fog off the mirror of our self image and begins the healing that reshapes our view of ourself and others.
Suffering from disappointment then becomes a privilege of sharing, enlightenment, and connection that kicks the ass of what divides our hearts and lives so we can float like a bumble bee and sting like a butterfly.
As Friedrich von Schiller wrote "Disappointment is to the soul what the thunder-storm is to the air".
Somewhere between an isolated monk on too high a hill and a monkey in a business suit insolated in too high a suite.
The result is reckless abandonment to myself from self-obsession rather than recklessly abandoned from myself unto the Lord. Self-doubt can disable me from treading the enabled path. Self-doubt leaves me in repeated attempts to be noble or hypersensitive to myself instead of being ennobled with the wisdom that trumps the deceit from self-reliance.
As self-doubt loses its power over me, I find that I have been given a life of faith to live out rather than just a faith to nobly defend through my own personal ideology often birthed through self-doubt .
Making time to listen is most often forgotten because of defensiveness. When we tell another to talk to us, we are rarely present with the other in the conversation because we simply issued a command and took a position. When telling another to speak, our goal is to know the one speaking better as well as discern the subject at hand to bring understanding that leads to action or stability. Most of our intellectual time is spent postioning and defending an understanding that we already have which we call self defense . I call it logic trumping the heart encounter. That just hardens the understanding we brought to the conversation rather than a deeper knowledge of truth or what is true about us or another.
So much initial conflict arises from this defensiveness that the energy drained away is the very energy that is required to talk and listen compassionately.
In one of my favorite books, Myth of Certainty, author Daniel Taylor wrote "We can preserve energy by avoiding unwinnable and unproductive struggles or conflicts because most arguments are not actually over announced issues, but underlying ones which are unstated, usually unrecognized, and probably more emotional or instinctive than rational."
Listening, you see, brings enlightening light we call insight that heals us from being heels.
I want to know you so that I know whom I am dealing with. In knowing you I can show you whom it is that I am dealing with.
Celebrate by not taking your presence for granted. Present yourself as a gift identifying with others that they may celebrate today as if it was their birthday.
Magic in simple circumstances that appear complicated. The right word first changes one's attitude so the view is more of reality that what it feels to be. It's the attitude that simplifies. It's the right word that sanctifies and purifies the attitude.
Gem workout.
Most people can't wait for the end of a question before answering it. Not seeing where one is led by the question causes us to fall into conversational traps-public or private. Hesitation allows for a bit of ambiguity to control the communication by bringing clarity. By doing this simple yet uncomfortable step, our next sentence doesn't miss what was said nor is it controlled by their last or a former remark.
A 10 second hesitation before speaking and then waiting an additional 10 seconds has not only resolved much conflict by bringing a calm to the moment, but has often allowed lagging insight to be discovered in real time that logic could not reach by continual talk.
Try it. You may learn to like it.
I don't like you because you don't listen to me, but I don't like me because I don't listen to you. Can you listen to me while thinking about me not listening to you?
Receptive and responsive.
The Mat is where it's at!
Unfolding of the mat gives light to purpose and prize
as unfolding of God's Word gives light, making the simple wise.
The mat is protection to the athlete from the fall.
It softens the blow when you give it your all.
It's boundaries are there to guide and to direct
as well as determine the fullness of effect
which is the grace of God for the elect.
On it flow tears of joy and celebration
as well as suffering and false accusation.
Limiting experience to it's presence by rules of law
it's the Spirit of such that removes the flaw.
To win and not lose seems the task,
The crown of victory is the mask.
Guidance by the eye of the Father
through which to trust and obey.
It's not to win or lose
but Grace to be able to play.
To be "Pro Wrestling",
you're "For the Struggle"
now limiting other choices
that were hard to juggle.
Whether and how you endure
with a spiritual and/or physical limp
It's God's strength that makes the weaknesses and temptations exempt. 11/27/2003
