When His promises are greater to me than the despair of my broken ones, I stop hating my weaknesses and limitations that are expressed through self-obsession and narcissism. Psalm 119:140
Not only do callousness amd numbness begin to fade, but gentleness even towards myself is empowered. Psalm 119:70
The ultimate puzzle that generates cross words because we are puzzled by the word cross. Luke 17:3-5
Awareness taken deeper through obedience.
A person who makes a difference instead of making only a point will, by example, point out the differences of how pointless a point can be if it makes no difference.
The stings of disobedience tend to make us feel that we must move out of the childlike state for all the wrong reasons We feel we must grow up and earn the right to hurt this much.
We challenge ourselves to “be a man or woman” when we feel the pain of a mistake. In our pride we are shocked that we would make a mistake or fail. We can’t hear our pain over the proud voice of self-reliance. Some of our worst mistakes are made from drawing wrong conclusions from undeniable truths. Galatians 4:8,9
Why is this? Pain is the most difficult of all the human conditions. Because of this, our views become distorted when pain humiliates us. We even refuse comfort that is strengthening thinking that it’s power might be used against us. Job 23:6
Pain is confusing to a child yet a child will continue to run to the parent. As we grow older the confusion of pain has deeper effects on us that we try to interpret with our own limited wisdom and experience. We pray as Jeremiah did to not hurt us for hurting so much. Jeremiah 10:24 Even when willing or forced to get help we find it difficult to the see the “goodness” of it. Hebrews 12:7-13
What is this goodness that often makes me feel as a naked man frantic in a house full of bees?
King David asked for a sign of this goodness in Psalm 86:17. He wrote about it in Psalm 142:7 and 81:16. Is it not the Christ with His gift of forgiveness and repentance to know Him? Acts 5:31
When you know Him you know the Father, son. John 14:9-14
Ask as a child and hear the aye of the Father. 2 Corinthians 1:20
Hear the whisper. Job 4:11-13
Mind over madder and madder.
Tuned in whether decked out or not.
A sorrowful heart that feels alone is the greatest grief.
Self hatred is not redemption. We spiritualize self hatred through self criticism to motivate ourselves into needed changed behavior. We are to yield to Someone greater than ourselves rather than pull ourselves up by our own bootstraps. To pray for courage stops the insults of self hatred and inspires succeess while giving the freedom to fail. Straps are practical. But, they cause us to often rush back into what we saw as our vision without realizing a vision unfolds according to inspired revelation in real time. Real time revelation creates in us the power to adapt to unforeseen or unexpected changes along the way.
Even mistakes that are made are then spiritually transformed into an upward gradual learning curve of confidence that lifts us after falling. Reboots. Psalm 71:5
What is counterintuitive is often counterinstinctive. A right hook against a wrong jab by overcoming evil with good. Psalm 73:21-26
It's always shocking how much pain and fear can make me forget my God-given instincts. Things work out more according to my preparedness rather than my plans since life is so full of inconsistencies, paradox, ambiguity, and uncertainty. Beware when we have the ability to force our plans and are prepared only to enforce them forcefully when adaptation to change is instead required.
Anger is the third stage reached after the initial stage of shock from an event and the second stage of sadness in the process of grieving. We often have others in our presence during this third stage who try to stop us from being so angry when anger intensifies with forms of blame attached to someone rightly or wrongly. However this can derail or delay the grieving process.
Anger is necessary in order to search for what could have been, even with forms of blame attached. Temporary blame can personalize the wound at deep levels needed for true healing and forgiveness to begin to occur, though self guilt may be felt from the blame.
Anger's search for what could have been reaches its purpose when the search ends in acceptance of what is. Then I can say I am what I am and life begins anew for me.
Needleless to say.
A self pit full of despair.
